Poems

Rivers Apart
claire burroughs perez ©
I cried a river but still we’re millions of rivers apart.
I prayed prayers that would top saints chart.
I sang songs but still it couldn't’t fill the empt’ness in my heart.
I smiled but not even a quart.

I gave you up, but it's quite apparent it's you that I lack.
I said goodbye but couldn’t turn my back.
I tried to run but without you it is hard to keep track.
I planned my escape but my heart seemed stuck.

Now, I'm drifting away in my dusky and lonely river
Here I'll float till my hair turns silver
I'll sail close to the wind that'll take me to you till I shiver
For in my heart I know you marked forever.

No current in this river can sweep away the feelings that I have.
For here in my heart lies a great love.
I will continue to sail, dive, swim and ask help from above.
that one day my love will be free as a dove.

Though I know were millions of rivers apart I will not quit
In this roughened boat i'll wait and sit.
Because I know in the vast ocean water one day we'll meet
And only for you my heart will beat.

No response
claire burroughs perez ©

I prayed and no response
I sacrificed my plans
When will I be given chance
for my heart to advance

I've been praying for so long
Am I doing things wrong
I even tried it in a song
My faith is not quite strong

Again I prayed and no response
In this life alone I dance
blessed and then left in a trance
my heart's pricked with a lance

In this world I had been thrown
to do things on my own
my dreams had been blown
in sorrow I have grown

Again I prayed and no response
Knelt down and raised my hands
I guess I am deaf and blind to see
the answers are just in front of me.

I lost You In The Closet
claire burroughs perez ©

Somewhere along the parties, old mink and high hills
Low hemmed skirts, old factories and fashion walls
Rough sketches, ticking clocks and fine swatches
Somewhere in that dizzying world I lost you.

Why did I have to choose and can’t have two shoes
Pink, red and maybe the Jimmy Choo blues.
Packed my silence, and wrinkled heart into my tote
I am seeing someone you might have thought.

I read Vogue Mag and your closed mind
My heart contracted like shirred silk kind
My eyes I denied tears and heart died with beers
I faked a smile, clicked glasses and  Cheers!

If only I knew that each caress on the fabric samples
Each clicking steps on the cold building floors
Each smile and nod on the great glittered gown
Is exchanged with a fine jewel that is you.

I rolled my emotions tight with chantilly lace
Walked past doors with 18th century grace
Discussed, argued and reasoned with blank face
But somehow through the lace holes you have escaped

I looked through my full closet and empty heart
Hanging knickerbockers and checkered smiles
Denims and vintage gray satchel still on the side.
Your sideway smile embroidered into my mind.

Wish my heart had been 100% cotton or velvet
Straight cut, fit, flare, skinny or stretch eyelet
I look Ok with this charmeuse, grabbed my bag
my grey stiletto but where’s my other shoe?

Pour Vous
claire burroughs perez ©

The pain, my thoughts, your misery                            
My heart in guilt clung to its memory                       
I wondered, I acknowledged, I denied              
For you my love I have gently cried                    

My fear, your hope & emotional clarity              
There is comfort and pain with familiarity          
Our games, the jokes, the time we spent                 
We’re so alike and yet so different.                      

Your firm resolve and my playfulness      
I dwell like a doll without a flesh
Upon your intellect where I am closely tied
The sea of minds in which we collide

The same hope which wraps my heart
enraptures my soul and fills my mind
There is something though I’ve to admit
That you I find here in my mind.

But I fear, for what I feel I am not sure.
Of everything I am unsure.
I want you to come and want you to go away.
I want all of you yet don’t want to be with you.

But love itself is quite allusive
Is it love to give up reality for a mere dream?
A fantasy that might not exist?
As celestial sky and glittering butterflies?

But here I stay against all reasons
Ignoring all changing seasons  
Treasures, jewels and paradise
Promise me then with all your lies.

I've Learned

claire burroughs perez ©
I’ve learned in life that it’s not about getting the big things but about living with purpose.

I’ve learned that you’ll have more peace and happiness when you have let go than when you
had your revenge.

I’ve learned that you’ll feel better when you are showing what’s really in your heart than
trying to hide it.

I’ve learned to laugh like a child, play like a child, be like a child and not to worry of what
others might think.

I’ve learned to give more of my time, more smiles, more yes to people.

I’ve learned to try new things everyday and to just enjoy life and not think too much what ifs
when faced with things not too important.

I’ve learned that 90 percent of our worries are not important. Or maybe all of it.

I’ve learned to ride the waves of life, to kiss the rain, to enjoy the sunshine and to face the
storms.

I’ve learned that pain has equal amount of joy.

I’ve learned to connect with as much people as I can from all corners of the world and know
that each one of us has treasures to give inside. Whatever language they speak, whatever food
they eat, whatever eye color they have.

I’ve learned that everyone is just like everyone. We all need and want to be loved and
appreciated, whether we show it or not, whether we are in touch with our wants & needs or
not.

I’ve learned that night is followed by day, rain by sunshine & that to embrace night and rain
as much as the day and sunshine for it is how it’s supposed to be.

I’ve learned to close my eyes and take in the moment from time to time. To feel that you are
alive in this vast world with all your brothers and sisters, just trying to survive.

I’ve learned that neither success nor failure is permanent.

I’ve learned that everything that happened to us in the past years have shaped who we are
today.

I’ve learned that no matter how busy we are & how many people we meet along the way.
There are few very special people in our hearts that always stay.